February Makes Me Wonder

I'm sure that many florist, jewelers, candy makers,wedding planners, restaurants, hotels, motels, stores and street vendors made lots of money on Valentine's Day. After all February is the month of love.

I wonder how many couples broke up so one of them wouldn't have to purchase a gift for the other. I wonder how many couples argued because one didn't get the gift they desired or didn't appreciate what was done for them. I wonder how many ladies called their significant other to say "you don't love me because I didn't receive flowers at work." I wonder how many lovers had wonderful romantic plans and went all out to please one another. Expressions of love should be given all year. Love is  not about a man made holiday designed to make you prove how much you love someone and empty your pockets.

  Black History Month is also celebrated in the month of February. This is the month that Blacks and others commemorate African Americans who have changed the world.  How we were expected to tell our history that is so rich and vast in a month?

 When I was a youngster in school, back in the day, it was called Negro History Week. As usual, given the time constraint, we manage to celebrate in style all over the world. I wonder what the world would like be like if the slave ships only stopped in America. I know it would be void of the gifts, talents and contributions made by African people all over the world.

Queen of Hearts

Fortitude in 2011

 

It is with great fortitude that I continue to go the limit.

I feel like I have been through 

the  Fire

Through the Storm

and it is only February!

 I moved in January and everything I own is sitting in a 5'X10" storage unit. Now I have the pleasure of listening to my children dialogue about whose residence I can crash at and when. Of course they all claim that I am welcome to stay with them at anytime.  I always keep my suitcase and backpack ready for travel.

  My computer crashed not from a virus but a  nasty Trojan Horse who took over my computer and locked me out. I was devastated because I use my computer for everything. It is my life line to the outside world. Thank you Brian for doing what you do best and putting a sistah back online.

 I'm still searching for work and sending out Resumes and Cover Letters into cyberspace. Periodically, I may have interview and I'm usually told "you are over qualified" or " we went with a candidate that more closely matched our criterion" or "good luck with your search." Don't these people understand that I have student loans to pay back.

Someone stole my identity and used my social security number and earned $62,000 for the year. What a great year that individual had. It has been a nightmare for me having to prove to the IRS I didn't earn that money and I don't owe taxes on it.

Facebook is history. I shutdown my Facebook page and I don't miss it at all.. I thought about the plethora of information I was giving out on myself, children, friends and other family members without being forced or coerced. The cunning and deceptive ways of Big Brother were to much for me. So I shut the shit down!

No matter what comes my way I will survive.

Queen of Hearts