Saturday, July 7, 2012

Job Cemetery

I have been grieving for the past three years over the loss of my job and my failure at obtaining another... Today I have decided  I am ready for the final step in grief, "acceptance."

I thought my grief would never end when I lost my beloved mother. I learned a lot about grief following her death. Such as... death is a part of life; life is very short; the importance of relationship; how your life is forever changed; life goes on; memories are all that remain and eventually time lessens the pain.

After losing my job I remained optimistic after all I never had a problem obtaining a J-O-B. I thought that I would have a new job next week. after all, I've worked all my life sometimes having two jobs. However, after days turned into weeks, weeks into months, months into years, grief set in.

Of course, I exhibited the common symptoms of grief: shock, disbelief, sadness, guilt, anger, fear, depression, and many physical ailments.

Then I went through  all the stages -

Denial - I can't believe this is happening to me. I have never had a problem obtaining job.

Anger - I was looking for someone to blame for this. This is just evil. Why me God?

Bargaining - God if you are listening let's make a deal. Bless me with a job please and I promise to...

Depression - I'm angry, frustrated, discouraged, hopeless and I give up. Hundreds of resumes and cover letters were emailed. The silence and covert rejection from potential employers was just too much.

Acceptance - Through all the prayers, wishing, hoping and believing, I've accepted my situation and am at peace with what has happened to me.

Queen of Hearts

1 comment:

  1. Ouch!!!

    Really sorry to hear about your unemployment situation.